I deal with being tired so very poorly. More so than others. Other people have the ability to still flourish with little hours of sleep. Whereas I crash hard. When I'm tired, all the bad things in my life tend to bother me more often. Not that I have a lot of bad things going, but it tends to hit harder when I'm tired. I have a severe inability to deal with stress, and life in general when I'm tired. I'm sure this is the case for some people, but I rarely see it as bad as I take it. I'm in a bad mood most of the day I'm tired. I don't take it out on others. I'm still nice to those around me, but those who know me know there is something wrong.
Most people say, "just get a good night's rest". It's not that easy when you work graves full time while going to school full time as well. Then other people say "then don't work graves." It's not that easy either. I do like working graves for the most part. Plus there is only 3 shifts available. The 06-1800 is not an option. It screws school right out of the picture. I'm not a morning person. The 12-24 shift is all but taken by more senior staff. Plus they will be getting rid of that shift due to budget cuts. It will only be mornings and graves for almost a year. "Get a new job." Also not a an option. For once in my life, I actually like my job and the people I work with. The graves work with my school schedule.
Sigh. I hate to complain since I'm so rarely this tired. But I can't stand these days where I'm too tired to handle the problems I'm faced with. I hate the days where I'm not strong enough to do what is needed of me. I still have so much to do the next couple of days. I can say goodbye to sleep till Saturday. I look forward to that day.
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