A very interesting point came across to me today as I read an old friend's blog about her life back home. And that point is never forgetting your old friend's.
I know I have addressed this before but on a more vague level. I'm kind of inspired to write about this topic since I've had time to think about it. I normally try not to write 3 blogs in one month since I'm sure the people who read these get tired of reading my crap. But I think this is something that should be important to all of us
Just because someone's life is no longer impacting it now doesn't mean they didn't impact it before and make a piece of you who you are. True, some friends do come and go. But as I thought about this, I started thinking about the friends that have gone out of my life. Some for good. Some linger and make cameo appearances in my life. I thought about these people and what they brought me. All of them gave me a special piece of their personality and lives that helped make me who I am. A lot of the friends I grew up with (with the exception of one) have gone on to things that ruined their lives like alcohol, drugs, crime. All of them seized to make a difference in my life by sophomore year because of these choices. On the inside it disappoints me, but I can't run away from the fact of how much they have meant to me in the past. The times they were there for me. The times we laughed. The times we got in trouble. All the times that made being young all it was supposed to be and more. Some taught me to stick up for myself. Others taught me trust. Others taught me to laugh at myself. Some taught me that loyalty can mean everything when you have nobody else. And to me, that brings up the biggest point as to what it means to be a true friend. It's not always about being self consumed in making your life this giant party to create the illusion it was worth living. It's about making yourself worth knowing. It's about making an impact on others whether you know it or not. I think some of the biggest memories we all have are the ones of the people who were there for us. The people who loved us. The people who broke our hearts. The people closest to us. We tend to forget about people of the past because they are no longer impacting our lives with little thought as to how much they taught us and how much they meant to us.
There are some people who run away from themselves to try to get away from their problems without any answers in reach. We have all been guilty of this at one point or another. But when it comes down to it, in the end, sometimes all we have is who we are. And who we are is largely dependant on our acceptance. Not only of who we are, but of other people. How we accept adversity, forgiveness, and problems with no easy answers. We all know that change in ourselves is inevitable. We move. We love. We hate. We regret. And eventually we die. No amount of moving can leave behind who we are. No amount of experiences can make us forget our foundation of our true being. No amount of time can kill who we truly want to be in life. Like I said, in the end, all we have is ourselves sometimes. But just because a piece of us changes doesn't mean our foundation by which we have lived and based our lives has changed completely. Ideally, we live on a base or foundation of good will and potential. When you get down to the core you can find that in your nature. I think staying who you are and true to yourself is what makes a person worth knowing.
We all put up fronts to protect ourselves from manipulation and rejection. But those fronts are only good for so long if used constantly. I hope that many of you are true to yourselves and don't forget who you are and who made you that way. I hope that many of you have made a difference in others lives, as many of you have done for me. I hope that many of you live life being worth knowing not just worth seeing. I hope no matter where you go in life, you never lose the ability to impact another's life for the better.
Thank you for reading.
Monday, November 27, 2006
Monday, November 13, 2006
Tomfoolery I say! TOMFOOLERY!
Why hello there little boy/girl. I'm sure you are reading this because you are curious as to what I will write next. Oh yes you are. You are a curious one.
Well it's the ol' life update blog. And I'm sure that many of you will be clicking the back button or the "home" button on your browser to avoid reading this. ha ha. But it's ok. I'm not going to try to be too deep on this one.
Life lately has been treating me pretty well. I feel as I am stepping towards my second decade of life (5 days from today, woot) I'm getting a better idea of who I am, who my true friends are, my real priorities and what I want out of my life. So far, I've had it pretty good. I have an amazing girlfriend for the first time in nearly 3 years. I bet many of you didn't see that coming since I'm so damn picky. But she was worth the 3 years holding out. :) I've also got a new job which literally was tossed in my lap. My parents are good friends with a radiologist who told them that I should apply for the job and they would hold the spot open for me until they determine if they like me. I wasn't even looking for a new job. My parents just told me one day that I have an interview and should go. I'm now a Radiology Facilitator. It's a pretty cool job where I work with radiology doctors directly and help them manage their workflow. I preview the images before hand and make sure they are set up correctly before the doctor views them, I answer all their pages and calls and answer quite a bit of questions for them. And it's multiple doctors too. Before I got the job they paid me to shadow twice to make sure everyone liked and if I could do the work. The doctors liked me a lot and so did the staff so they offered me the job. It's pretty small hours so far, but the pay is incredible. I start off at 15.34 an hour. Now that's pretty sweet. But I only work 2 days a week so far, so I'm still going to work at Alta View lab until they can offer me more hours. I'm super stoked about the job. If I feel like I can make it through med school, this would really benefit me so I could gain recommendations from some of the biggest names in radiology in the state of Utah. That would be good. School has been going really well for me too. I'm nearly done with my EMT course. Which is good because it's starting to wear on me a little. I'm nervous for all the testing that I hav for the next week and a half. I hope I pass. Last night I volunteered as an EMT for my course at Pioneer Valley Hospital. It was probably one of the coolest things I've done in a while. It was real hands on patient care. I was doing anything from taking vitals, to prepping IV's for the doctors and nurses. I helped a ton of people and saw some crazy things. More than ever am I inspired to do healthcare. But I think I want to go beyond paramedic now. I'm thinking a doctor for sure now. As just an EMT basic, I felt very limited as to what I could do to help people. It kind of bummed me out. I want to be able to do everything I could to help these people. I saw attempted suicides, I saw assault victims, I saw dying cancer patients. I saw everything. I wanted to be able to do more to help people I didn't even know. I just knew I wanted to have the ability to help them feel better. To have a sense of trust that people put into a doctor in their time of need. I know it sounds corny and lame. But I really feel like now that I can do this. I want to be a doctor so I can use my abilities to the fullest to help others. What kind of doctor? Not sure. I'm thinking an ER doctor. But who knows. With my radiology job, I will be pretty hands on with the technology and work of a radiologist. I may want to be a radiologist. But who knows. The only thing I know, is that I think I've come to a pretty firm decision that med school is the way I want to go. It's a long road ahead of me. But more than ever I feel like that with the right amount of patience and some help on the side, that I can do it.
The only thing that is troubling me is my financial situation since I owe a lot of money to my parents, and school not to mention. I'm in a pretty tight spot with money. I'm hoping that I can work most of December to catch up on my debt and maybe come close to breaking even. Aside from that is my paranoid side. Things have been going well the last couple of months, but yet, I can't help but wonder, when is the axe going to drop? When is everything just going to suddenly turn shitty and make me stressed beyond all reason? What goes up must come down. That's scary to me. This is really the first winter in years where I don't feel alone and scared of my future. I just don't want that to be ripped away from me because everything suddenly becomes unbalanced. But I am hopeful that maybe things won't be so bad. Sure, I will have some hard times ahead of me, and I'm surely not invincible. But I'm feeling a little more charged to take on life.
For once, I'm not afraid and clouded by my stress.
For once, I feel like I'm not so lost. :)
Well it's the ol' life update blog. And I'm sure that many of you will be clicking the back button or the "home" button on your browser to avoid reading this. ha ha. But it's ok. I'm not going to try to be too deep on this one.
Life lately has been treating me pretty well. I feel as I am stepping towards my second decade of life (5 days from today, woot) I'm getting a better idea of who I am, who my true friends are, my real priorities and what I want out of my life. So far, I've had it pretty good. I have an amazing girlfriend for the first time in nearly 3 years. I bet many of you didn't see that coming since I'm so damn picky. But she was worth the 3 years holding out. :) I've also got a new job which literally was tossed in my lap. My parents are good friends with a radiologist who told them that I should apply for the job and they would hold the spot open for me until they determine if they like me. I wasn't even looking for a new job. My parents just told me one day that I have an interview and should go. I'm now a Radiology Facilitator. It's a pretty cool job where I work with radiology doctors directly and help them manage their workflow. I preview the images before hand and make sure they are set up correctly before the doctor views them, I answer all their pages and calls and answer quite a bit of questions for them. And it's multiple doctors too. Before I got the job they paid me to shadow twice to make sure everyone liked and if I could do the work. The doctors liked me a lot and so did the staff so they offered me the job. It's pretty small hours so far, but the pay is incredible. I start off at 15.34 an hour. Now that's pretty sweet. But I only work 2 days a week so far, so I'm still going to work at Alta View lab until they can offer me more hours. I'm super stoked about the job. If I feel like I can make it through med school, this would really benefit me so I could gain recommendations from some of the biggest names in radiology in the state of Utah. That would be good. School has been going really well for me too. I'm nearly done with my EMT course. Which is good because it's starting to wear on me a little. I'm nervous for all the testing that I hav for the next week and a half. I hope I pass. Last night I volunteered as an EMT for my course at Pioneer Valley Hospital. It was probably one of the coolest things I've done in a while. It was real hands on patient care. I was doing anything from taking vitals, to prepping IV's for the doctors and nurses. I helped a ton of people and saw some crazy things. More than ever am I inspired to do healthcare. But I think I want to go beyond paramedic now. I'm thinking a doctor for sure now. As just an EMT basic, I felt very limited as to what I could do to help people. It kind of bummed me out. I want to be able to do everything I could to help these people. I saw attempted suicides, I saw assault victims, I saw dying cancer patients. I saw everything. I wanted to be able to do more to help people I didn't even know. I just knew I wanted to have the ability to help them feel better. To have a sense of trust that people put into a doctor in their time of need. I know it sounds corny and lame. But I really feel like now that I can do this. I want to be a doctor so I can use my abilities to the fullest to help others. What kind of doctor? Not sure. I'm thinking an ER doctor. But who knows. With my radiology job, I will be pretty hands on with the technology and work of a radiologist. I may want to be a radiologist. But who knows. The only thing I know, is that I think I've come to a pretty firm decision that med school is the way I want to go. It's a long road ahead of me. But more than ever I feel like that with the right amount of patience and some help on the side, that I can do it.
The only thing that is troubling me is my financial situation since I owe a lot of money to my parents, and school not to mention. I'm in a pretty tight spot with money. I'm hoping that I can work most of December to catch up on my debt and maybe come close to breaking even. Aside from that is my paranoid side. Things have been going well the last couple of months, but yet, I can't help but wonder, when is the axe going to drop? When is everything just going to suddenly turn shitty and make me stressed beyond all reason? What goes up must come down. That's scary to me. This is really the first winter in years where I don't feel alone and scared of my future. I just don't want that to be ripped away from me because everything suddenly becomes unbalanced. But I am hopeful that maybe things won't be so bad. Sure, I will have some hard times ahead of me, and I'm surely not invincible. But I'm feeling a little more charged to take on life.
For once, I'm not afraid and clouded by my stress.
For once, I feel like I'm not so lost. :)
Sunday, November 5, 2006
Let's Revise the Food Pyramid and Society
So after recieving about 4 hours of sleep last night and fighting my way through an 8 hour day at work, I figured that now would be as good of time as any to attempt to write a humorous blog. It's been a while since I've made such an attempt.
So what is today's topic you ask? I'm sure the suspsense in attempting to decipher my title on first impression is fairly intense. Hold your breath no longer my witless chums. Today I will be addressing two subjects. 1. how they should revise the way they advertise food and 2. the utterly ridiculous ideas of a good relationship.
So this was partially inspired by my friend Kevin who's rants about the near crippling diaherria effects of Taco Bell changed the way I looked at fast food. Fast food chains should adopt a system, by which the naming of their product should be REQUIRED to reflect on the effects the product will have on your stomach and colon. And to make it even more interesting, they should also have names that hint of current events.
Lost?
Understandable. But that's why I'm here to put you back on track with these lovely examples.
I'll pick on Taco Bell for a couple of examples because its just so easy and convenient. Examples of products that would accurately reflect on your colon while staying to current events would be:
The Jihad Burrito
Tax Inflation Double Decker Out the Esophogus
The Improvised Explosive Device Beef Gordita (Now with meat!)
The Economy Slump Taco
Appetizing ay? You bet your ass it is. But lets not limit ourselves to Taco Bell. I will go over a variety of products that you would relate to.
Martyr Muffins
Quarter Pound Obesity Burger
Iraqi Revolt Nuggets
Rapid Immigration Sandwich
Tank Stopping Dairy Delight
Prisoner Pita Bread
Wouldn't this be a little more fair to all of us if we knew what was going to happen the second that stuff hit our stomachs? At least once in our lives, we have consumed a product of a fast food origin, that has made us pray for a swift death in our sleep. But with my proposed system, we can educate the ignorant and obese American public at large about current events, but while maintaining honesty that you will be in a world of shit later (no pun intended)
Now for my second topic. Ludicrous relationship ideas. I can't stress this enough about how much crazy crap I see going on in this state of Utah. I would say that about 45% of my graduating class is already married or engaged. And that's surprisingly accurate. Utah has the highest rate of young married couples. It is estimated that by age 23, 60% of the people you graduated with will already be married and will likely have been married for 1 year to 2 years. I read this in the SLC Tribune the other day (If I could have found the article about it, I would have posted it.) What kind of maniac wants to get married before they can legally drink? Even worse, get married before you can legally by cigarettes(19 in case you didn't know)
Yeah get that idea out of your head. That's the devil. That and really sappy and posed out pictures of yourself and significant other on myspace and other websites the public can view them. Stop that. It makes me want to eat Taco Bell just so I have a reason to throw up. And don't get me started about the insane idea that true and passionate love can exist in under one day. Nothing says "I believe in fortune cookies, horoscopes, chain letters and the tooth fairy" quite like you goobers who believe that idea. Stop that too. That's bad. Thats right, I'm posing my opinions as facts :)
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So what is today's topic you ask? I'm sure the suspsense in attempting to decipher my title on first impression is fairly intense. Hold your breath no longer my witless chums. Today I will be addressing two subjects. 1. how they should revise the way they advertise food and 2. the utterly ridiculous ideas of a good relationship.
So this was partially inspired by my friend Kevin who's rants about the near crippling diaherria effects of Taco Bell changed the way I looked at fast food. Fast food chains should adopt a system, by which the naming of their product should be REQUIRED to reflect on the effects the product will have on your stomach and colon. And to make it even more interesting, they should also have names that hint of current events.
Lost?
Understandable. But that's why I'm here to put you back on track with these lovely examples.
I'll pick on Taco Bell for a couple of examples because its just so easy and convenient. Examples of products that would accurately reflect on your colon while staying to current events would be:
The Jihad Burrito
Tax Inflation Double Decker Out the Esophogus
The Improvised Explosive Device Beef Gordita (Now with meat!)
The Economy Slump Taco
Appetizing ay? You bet your ass it is. But lets not limit ourselves to Taco Bell. I will go over a variety of products that you would relate to.
Martyr Muffins
Quarter Pound Obesity Burger
Iraqi Revolt Nuggets
Rapid Immigration Sandwich
Tank Stopping Dairy Delight
Prisoner Pita Bread
Wouldn't this be a little more fair to all of us if we knew what was going to happen the second that stuff hit our stomachs? At least once in our lives, we have consumed a product of a fast food origin, that has made us pray for a swift death in our sleep. But with my proposed system, we can educate the ignorant and obese American public at large about current events, but while maintaining honesty that you will be in a world of shit later (no pun intended)
Now for my second topic. Ludicrous relationship ideas. I can't stress this enough about how much crazy crap I see going on in this state of Utah. I would say that about 45% of my graduating class is already married or engaged. And that's surprisingly accurate. Utah has the highest rate of young married couples. It is estimated that by age 23, 60% of the people you graduated with will already be married and will likely have been married for 1 year to 2 years. I read this in the SLC Tribune the other day (If I could have found the article about it, I would have posted it.) What kind of maniac wants to get married before they can legally drink? Even worse, get married before you can legally by cigarettes(19 in case you didn't know)
Yeah get that idea out of your head. That's the devil. That and really sappy and posed out pictures of yourself and significant other on myspace and other websites the public can view them. Stop that. It makes me want to eat Taco Bell just so I have a reason to throw up. And don't get me started about the insane idea that true and passionate love can exist in under one day. Nothing says "I believe in fortune cookies, horoscopes, chain letters and the tooth fairy" quite like you goobers who believe that idea. Stop that too. That's bad. Thats right, I'm posing my opinions as facts :)
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