Why hello there little boy/girl. I'm sure you are reading this because you are curious as to what I will write next. Oh yes you are. You are a curious one.
Well it's the ol' life update blog. And I'm sure that many of you will be clicking the back button or the "home" button on your browser to avoid reading this. ha ha. But it's ok. I'm not going to try to be too deep on this one.
Life lately has been treating me pretty well. I feel as I am stepping towards my second decade of life (5 days from today, woot) I'm getting a better idea of who I am, who my true friends are, my real priorities and what I want out of my life. So far, I've had it pretty good. I have an amazing girlfriend for the first time in nearly 3 years. I bet many of you didn't see that coming since I'm so damn picky. But she was worth the 3 years holding out. :) I've also got a new job which literally was tossed in my lap. My parents are good friends with a radiologist who told them that I should apply for the job and they would hold the spot open for me until they determine if they like me. I wasn't even looking for a new job. My parents just told me one day that I have an interview and should go. I'm now a Radiology Facilitator. It's a pretty cool job where I work with radiology doctors directly and help them manage their workflow. I preview the images before hand and make sure they are set up correctly before the doctor views them, I answer all their pages and calls and answer quite a bit of questions for them. And it's multiple doctors too. Before I got the job they paid me to shadow twice to make sure everyone liked and if I could do the work. The doctors liked me a lot and so did the staff so they offered me the job. It's pretty small hours so far, but the pay is incredible. I start off at 15.34 an hour. Now that's pretty sweet. But I only work 2 days a week so far, so I'm still going to work at Alta View lab until they can offer me more hours. I'm super stoked about the job. If I feel like I can make it through med school, this would really benefit me so I could gain recommendations from some of the biggest names in radiology in the state of Utah. That would be good. School has been going really well for me too. I'm nearly done with my EMT course. Which is good because it's starting to wear on me a little. I'm nervous for all the testing that I hav for the next week and a half. I hope I pass. Last night I volunteered as an EMT for my course at Pioneer Valley Hospital. It was probably one of the coolest things I've done in a while. It was real hands on patient care. I was doing anything from taking vitals, to prepping IV's for the doctors and nurses. I helped a ton of people and saw some crazy things. More than ever am I inspired to do healthcare. But I think I want to go beyond paramedic now. I'm thinking a doctor for sure now. As just an EMT basic, I felt very limited as to what I could do to help people. It kind of bummed me out. I want to be able to do everything I could to help these people. I saw attempted suicides, I saw assault victims, I saw dying cancer patients. I saw everything. I wanted to be able to do more to help people I didn't even know. I just knew I wanted to have the ability to help them feel better. To have a sense of trust that people put into a doctor in their time of need. I know it sounds corny and lame. But I really feel like now that I can do this. I want to be a doctor so I can use my abilities to the fullest to help others. What kind of doctor? Not sure. I'm thinking an ER doctor. But who knows. With my radiology job, I will be pretty hands on with the technology and work of a radiologist. I may want to be a radiologist. But who knows. The only thing I know, is that I think I've come to a pretty firm decision that med school is the way I want to go. It's a long road ahead of me. But more than ever I feel like that with the right amount of patience and some help on the side, that I can do it.
The only thing that is troubling me is my financial situation since I owe a lot of money to my parents, and school not to mention. I'm in a pretty tight spot with money. I'm hoping that I can work most of December to catch up on my debt and maybe come close to breaking even. Aside from that is my paranoid side. Things have been going well the last couple of months, but yet, I can't help but wonder, when is the axe going to drop? When is everything just going to suddenly turn shitty and make me stressed beyond all reason? What goes up must come down. That's scary to me. This is really the first winter in years where I don't feel alone and scared of my future. I just don't want that to be ripped away from me because everything suddenly becomes unbalanced. But I am hopeful that maybe things won't be so bad. Sure, I will have some hard times ahead of me, and I'm surely not invincible. But I'm feeling a little more charged to take on life.
For once, I'm not afraid and clouded by my stress.
For once, I feel like I'm not so lost. :)
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