Touch it!

Hey, I have a huge boner right now. Erection if you will. Do I have any takers who want to see it/touch it? Anyone at all? It doesn't bite. Promise. It just spits a little bit.............Come on. I know you want to. Don't even deny it!

And for the record this is just a JOKE! I've been so bored the past 3 weeks because I've been grounded, that saying random shit is my only form of cheap entertainment. I hope you were just as cheaply amused as I am now. Have a wonderful day/evening.

Fuck!!!!!

I'm so scared! I don't know what to do. I'm on my last math packet but I have to retake one test then do one more before the 27th. And I'm so lost in what I'm doing. I'm so fucking scared. I don't know what to do. Honestly. I've never been so scared and confused. This packet has clearly taken its toll on me. Now I'm just breaking down and losing my mind. Oh God how I wish I could do math, more than ever. But whining won't save me now as it wouldn't save me then. This is all my fucking fault. I failed the stupid class and now I'm stuck trying to make it up at the last second. I'm so scared I won't graduate. I'm sick of being scared. I'm sick of being depressed, tired, angry, confused, and frustrated 24/7. Fuck, I just don't know what to do. And that's extra scary to me. I have to graduate. My graduation all depends on one packet. Ah! I don't understand any of the shit. It's so hard. I can handle spanish class, I can handle anatomy, I can handle english. But the second I have to deal with math. I can't do shit. I have never been so scared ever in my life. I can't emphasize that enough. I don't have much longer. I just fucking wish I was smart enough to do it. I'm seeing a tutor and stuff. But it's not enough. Teacher's don't care enough to help me. My friends just make bullshit excuses not to help me with it. It's just so much to handle virtually all by myself. It's hard to handle something I don't understand and never have understood. I keep telling myself. Just a little bit longer. You're almost done. You got done with one packet now you have one more. But it doesn't work anymore. I just don't know what to do now. Ah! I want to fucking scream and cry so bad. But I can't do it. I keep pushing myself to understand this bullshit and I can't do it no matter what. God help me, it feels like I'm dying.

Thanks to those who deserve it

I'd like to take the time to say thanks to those who have helped me through some of the hard times I have been through since March. From my mom's dangerous surgery - to me trying to catch up on graduation, and every shitty detail in between those events, there were people who were there for me to comfort me in my time of need. Granted not all my problems were that big of a deal. But the stress really started to build on me. I'm sorry for whining, and bitching or being in an overall shitty mood to some people. I'm usually a pretty upbeat guy if you know me. Even though the worst of the shittiness is not yet over, I would like to thank a few people for being there Kyle Jeff Brennon Ashley Cl. Ashley Co. Wil Matt C Lincoln Branden Melissa Jessica And I'm sure there is more. If you're name wasn't in here, then I either forgot about you on accident or you just plain old didn't deserve thanks you rotten bastard. But I felt the need to post this, even if it doesn't apply to everyone, because I don't think some people realize what they can do to help change someones life or state of mind. Sometimes it may not take very much but it's in everyones power I believe. Anyway, I'm done. But on a side note: FUCK HIGH SCHOOL and FUCK YOU TOO! (you know who you are)