I'm moving

Ok, a few months ago I posted a blog saying that I might be moving. I didn't think it would really happen. My dad got offered a new job that will pay him a lot more than we make. At least triple. Now, where would we move? Boise, Idaho. Statistically Boise is 10 years behind Salt Lake. So that means the Smashing pumpkins are still together. Kurt Cobain isn't dead yet, and that Oklahoma bomber son of bitch needs to die. Ha ha, no they are ten years behind technology wise. That doesn't bother me. What bothers me is that I don't want to move. At all. Everything I have ever known is here in Utah. I may not like this state, but it is my home nonetheless. Everything I have, everything I have gained, everyone I know is here. I don't want to leave. This is the beginning of my adult life and I can't tear down everything I know and start over with a new life where everything is unfamiliar. All my family is in Idaho, but I would never see them anyway. I'm fuckin pissed. I don't want to leave. I can move if I wanted to. But to where? With who? I can't go alone. I don't make enough money. I really don't want to go. And I know some of you had to do this when you were younger or maybe you still move a lot and you're just thinking "fuck a doodle doo, quit your bitchin." It's truly hard for me though to leave all this and go somewhere I don't want to go. I never pictured myself living in Idaho for as long as I have lived. It scares me. Where am I going to be? What am I going to do? I won't have the steady job I have now. I won't have friends I've grown up with. I won't have anything. However, there is a chance that in 90 days that if my dad doesn't like the job or the employers don't like him he can leave or be told to leave, no problems. But thats a very unlikely situation. Also I won't be moving until March or April. But still, I don't want to leave. It's depressing for me.
I don't want to go. I really don't with every fiber of my being.........