Stressed or Tired

I finally made it through my first semester of college. It could have been worse. Yet it could have been better too. I feel like a lot has been lifted off of me. But yet, with the stress of finals lifted, why is it that I feel just as stressed? I have so much on my mind I can't sort it all out. Lately, I just feel so helpless and lonely. Mostly lonely. I tell myself everyday "I don't want to feel like this anymore." "I don't want these feelings or emotions." If only it were as easy as wishing those away. My moods have been so on and off lately. It's almost as if I'm bipolar. I know I'm really not. But I can't control these overwhelming emotions that seem to hit me when I least expect. Even when I do expect them to hit, it doesn't make me anymore prepared or ready to handle it. I don't know what to do. Maybe because it's just winter, that I feel like this. I don't remember a winter where I've been happy. I'm generally depressed in the winter time. It's so easy to set me off. It's so easy to stress me out. And it doesn't help me any that I'm lonely. Lonelier than I've ever felt. I have good friends, so I'm not lonely in that aspect. I'm lonely in the fact that I have not really ever had a girl care for me deeply and I care for her just as deep in almost 2 years. Granted, I'm young and shouldn't have to worry about this sort of things too much. But feeling like you're unwanted in a way really starts to take its toll. I don't know. I just had to rant. That's all. It's not that big of a deal. I just needed to type till I ran out of thoughts.