Any time I have to present a report or do a speech for school, I make sure to get loaded up on caffeine. My regular amount of caffeine is no longer enough to prop me up. It's just enough to make me mildly pleasant in the morning. However, a little extra is just about enough to make me gregarious, social, and seemingly friendly with strangers.
I've always known this fact about myself. A caffeine overdose is just what I need to get me going. I get too much energy. I get a little jittery but it's worth it. All that excess energy gets put towards social endeavors because there is no where else to put it. I find myself chatting up strangers in line places. My recessive gene social skills suddenly become dominant. I can speak in front of crowds well. I can soothe say my way in and out of things. I become impervious to criticisms. Yes, the perks of a social butterfly become my essence when excessive caffeine is in my system. My mom's side of the family is known for this type of thing. While I retain some of that skill for work and forced social situations, I'm usually silent and keep to myself.
Like a drug, the caffeine wears off. I go from invincible, back to human. I get hungover on the lack of caffeine and find myself to be irritable. Suddenly, everything and everyone bothers me. But it's ok. I couldn't imagine wanting to be friendly all the time. I couldn't imagine being so talkative. I'm much happier in my comfort zone of being equally less friendly to everyone, all the time.
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