Comfort Disappearing

Some days
it feels like
sleep is the only thing
I have to rely on
to take me
anywhere but where I am
I'll go anywhere
From 30 seconds of pitch darkeness
to a surreal reality
full of twisted images
and nonsensical plots
But even sleep fails me
as much as I
fail myself
Refusing to take me away

This music
in my car
is much too upbeat
for my down beat mood
I'm starting all over
Again
I wonder if it
will be worth it
I wonder if I can really do this
and more
I struggle trying to
figure this out
I struggle to figure out
the people around me
and yet
no answer is in sight
another exhausted day
where I can fall asleep
unsure of what I can really be in life