It's been a little over a month since I've written a blog of any kind. And I'm sure many of you were wondering, just how the hell I'm doing. That's right. I'm just that self-centered to think that everyone simultaneously cares about my existence at any give time. ha ha.
October has always been one of my favorite months. The way the colors change and the faint sound of rustling leaves blowing in the wind. Little things like that make it worth while for some reason. What I like most about October is the holiday of Halloween. It's the most festive time of the year I think. You're not buying into the commercialist bullshit. Though there is some, just like every holiday. I like how just for the month of October, we can all live in a fictional world of death and actually enjoy it. ha ha. Ok, maybe that sounds morbid. But what I'm trying to say is that, Halloween is meant to be fun for everyone. No one is out trying to buy presents. No one is trying to go on a hassle of a vacation. No one is out trying to kill each other. It's the one day of the year where kids and adults alike can dress in ridiculous costumes and not get the police called on them. 10 year old boys are running around in costumes that serial killers and serial rapists envy. Whereas girls and women of all ages dress in costumes that put the skankiest hookers to shame. It's the one magical day of the year where dressing like a drunken wreck or a very incompetent blood covered surgeon, is considered fun. The decorations and mood are perfect. It's the one day of the year, where it is perfectly legal to be a complete jackass in the comfort of the public eye whether you're with the traditional Halloween spirit or not.
Anyway, enough on my random thoughts on October.
Lately, life has actually been good for the most part. But once again, I have fallen back to the clutches of debt. Mostly because of the ridiculous amounts of money I spent repairing my van. Most of the money I saved for the summer has all gone towards keeping my van up to speed even though it's still having problems. Debt, is temporary. I'm not worried so much, because I know I can pull out of it with some time. My goal lately is to transfer to the U for good. I've been talking with counselors and getting ready to make the jump to a bit more of an advanced college setting. I'm thinking about a career in emergency medicine nowadays. I'm thinking I want to go into paramedics for a while and see how I like that. If all goes well, I'm thinking of applying to med school after that. But thats much too far for me to think about right now. I also may have a shot at getting a job that will pay me 5 dollar more than I make now. I would be working closely with radiology physicians and helping coordinate patient schedules and patient care. I hope it works out. The job I have currently is boring me to death. It beats the hell out of my last job. But medical laboratory science doesn't interest me. Plus I have to work with one hell of a douchebag of a co-worker who makes my life hell. It's only one day a week, but it's still a pain in the ass dealing with a man who has no respect for anyone but himself.
Aside from that, I feel as though things are starting to get better for me as time goes on. This is probably the first Fall/pre-winter season in years where I don't feel as though I'm walking alone. For once, I'm relatively happy during this time of year, the time of year I usually dred the most. My friends haven't disappeared and I see them often. I've met some worth while people lately too that help make my life better. There is little tension between myself and my family anymore. I can only hope that this maintains. It's been a while since I've felt this happy.
Hope all is well on your end of the screen. :)
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